when life gives you lemons, make lemonade

So I went to watch TFIOS with my big sister yesterday and oh my god, it was everything I had hoped for and more. After waiting so long to see it, I was worried that it may not live up to my expectations. As well as this, a load of my friends had been saying how amazing it was and I was worrying that they may have over hyped it and I'd be disappointed, but my main worry was that it wouldn't do the book justice. I'm going to attempt to not give away too many spoiler alerts so I don't ruin it for those of you who haven't seen it but literally what are you waiting for? GO. SEE. IT. I read the book a couple of months after it came out, though, before this I had read 'Looking For Alaska' where I first fell in love with John Green. He is a literature God. The Fault In Our Stars quickly became my most favourite book and the news that it was being made into a film was insane. It's so crazy how well the film abided by the book.. you know when you read a book and...

I guess this post is going to be a reflective one, looking back on what has happened throughout this year so far. And that is a lot! I can't quite believe just how much has happened and changed. Change is a weird thing because it happens so quickly and frequently before you've even got time to reflect on it or even realise it's happening or has happened. A lot of shit has happened this year (won't go into detail, this is not my sob story for X Factor) but I'm finally looking at the positives. This honestly isn't meant to be a soppy, get-your-violins-out post, it's just a self-reflection for me I guess. I didn't think coming home from Uni was going to be a good thing for me at all, I loved having people around me all of the time- in fact, I relied on it a lot. Although I live with my younger brother, younger sister, Mother and Step Dad, it's still not the same as having all of your friends around you whenever you want. I was almost scared to lose that...

I have now moved back home! My time at Robert Tressell Halls and room 203 has come to an end and I feel very emotional about it. That whole experience was one I will never forget. I will miss a lot about living in Halls, especially always having someone about. Wherever you went, you'd never be alone. Even walking into the kitchen, you're bound to see someone. I loved that. Because at the same time as this, you could still have your own space in the privacy and comfort of your own room. I wish I appreciated that a little more whilst being there. Towards the end of my time at Halls I was so sick of being by myself, and to survive Halls, you have to enjoy your own company. Towards the end I was extremely reliant on my friends for company, as splitting up with my ex boyfriend meant time alone was time to over think the situation and work myself up, which is never healthy. So the last few weeks I was always with someone. So it's really weird to now be back home and not have that...

This blog post isn't about anything in particular as such, but I just had one of those moments of realisation as I was packing all of my room away ready for the Summer that awaits me. I realised that sometimes carrying on is the most important thing to do, simply just carrying on. You may be thinking, "what on earth is she on about" or even "well, of course it's important to carry on!" but I realised that this really can be the answer to anything. This year has tested me more than any other. I've been thrown curve balls that no one should have to deal with. As well as this, there is the stress of work, which ultimately everyone has to deal with at some stage in their lives. This whole Uni experience has been a massive learning curve, naturally. But also aside from academic work also comes my own personal achievements. Although I am not yet the person I want to be, or even the person I was, I am still learning. And I think that alone is amazing. That ever...