when life gives you lemons, make lemonade

I’ve been wanting to write about the monumental fuck up that was 2019 for a long time now. It’s like… when your life flips 180 in such a commemorative way, you don’t really know where to begin. I wanted to make sure I do this before 2020 begins, though. I have this weird thing attached to New Years. I know that the beginning of a new year is metaphorical, in that it cannot determine whether life/things will change or not but I am so relieved that 2019 is nearly over. Indefinitely marked the worst year of my life. I want to let out all that I need to so that I can go into 2020 with a positive mindset and leave all of the trash from 2019 behind. I ended 2018 in probably the best space I have been in for a long time. I always go through a checklist when thinking about life, and it is usually as follows: - Friends - Family - Significant other (obvs optional) - Work - Myself If all of the above are ticking along smoothly, then I always see that as a measure of success. So ending ...

I have been wanting to write for a while now, but honestly I haven't really found the time and my mental health has not always allowed for me to be in the right head space to commit to writing. I don't know if that makes any sense, but sometimes it's hard to find the motivation to do something - even if you really want to do it. I wanted to write this because, to be honest, I had hoped it may help me to feel even just slightly a little tiny bit better just to let it all out. I've been through it over the past few months really, but it's only just now starting to really take its toll on my mental health. My MH is something that I'm never quiet about (and rightly so I think) and something that I still, after years and years of suffering, have not really understood or known how to deal with it best. I think this is fine, it's a part of me and I guess I will work it out in time. However, just recently I've been in probably the worst mental space I've...

I like looking back at my blog and the journey it has been on. The journey I've been on. So many people are so quick to criticise about everything these days, from vegan sausage rolls to guys wearing make up. Who really cares? and if you do care, ask yourself why. I don't have an issue with blogging-out-loud my inner thoughts and feelings. I'm not scared of embracing how I feel, and I like looking back and seeing how far I've come and just the journey in general. Life is a journey after all, right? I've started living life a bit more honestly, I think. Although we are only 5 days into 2019, it's brought up a lot of emotions and memories I thought I was over and done with. I don't know if you're the type of person to care about a New Year and this idea of a 'blank slate' - but it brings me some comfort. Knowing that you have another 365 days to play around with and you just never know what's around the corner. I look back at this point last ...