Living life with a little more positivity.

Hello, 
It’s been a while since i’ve posted, right? There's been a mixture of reasons why, but ultimately I guess it all comes down to time. In many ways I’m like “I have hardly any time to myself these days” because I’m in my final year of Uni and it’s stressful as hell, and yet I find myself procrastinating by writing this blog post and watching season upon season of Hells Kitchen*. I’ve realised recently that I’m not as optimistic anymore as I should be. Yes, I have a lot going on right now so it’s expected for me to be stressed, but equally I need to be optimistic about it else I will never see results in the way I want to. So, I decided to write about my top three things that I’m looking forward to. No particular time frame, or order, just moments I can’t wait to live in.

  1. For University to be over.
University has been the best experience. With everything going on with my campus right now it's made me realise that Uni was such a good idea. I don’t regret going to University one bit, I’ve learnt so much, I’ve met so many amazing people and I’ve learnt to love this little town we call Hastings and the community surrounding it. I would never have got that anywhere else. Honestly though, University is definitely not for me. I know it’s a bit late for me to be realising this now, but I think I knew all along. When I made the decision of coming to University, it was simply because I felt it was my next move. You finish college, sixth form, whatever, and then you’re thrown in at the deep end almost, with the decision of getting a job or furthering your studies. That’s how I saw it. One thing I’m terrified of is going straight into a job and then just getting stuck there and not being happy. I think, if you’re gonna work for the rest of your life up until you retire, you kinda owe it to yourself to at least do something that makes you happy. The dream is to find a job that doesn’t feel like you’ve worked a day in your life. But I understand that’s pretty unrealistic. So I came to Uni, and although I’ve had a rollercoaster of a time, one thing is certain: I am so done with education. I’m gonna be so fucking proud of myself once this is all over, ‘cause I’ve genuinely busted my arse off and it hasn’t been easy in the slightest. I’m looking forward to (hopefully) getting that degree and moving on with the next chapter of my life… whatever that may be (lol help I have no idea).

  1. Moving in with my best friend.
I’ve lived by myself for three years now, so it’s gonna be pretty weird moving back home for good. Although there aren’t exactly any ‘rules’ in place at home, it’s still gonna be strange being back in that environment. It’s scary how we’re all growing up and shit. My little brother is in the Army, and has a place over there, a baby on the way and a fiancee. So, it’s pretty obvious he’s not going to be moving back home at any point. I’m going to be moving back home temporarily and then it leaves Lillie-Mai, who is only 8, so has a little time before she jets off anywhere anytime soon. Lewis and his buddy Ryan have their own place together at the moment, and when their tenancy runs out next year Lew and I are hoping to get our own place together. That’s like my ultimate goal, but I don’t want to rush into it- when we have all the time in the world. I need to make sure I get a proper career doing what I wanna do first (which I will figure out… soon), and not just hurry into it ‘cause I have the money for rent from a shitty job. I keep telling myself this because I really do want to rush into it.

  1. Earning money.
I don’t exactly like working. Who does? 
Although, working at Ernest Jones was actually super fun and the best job I’ve had to date. But I want to end up doing something with my degree and earning proper money for myself, I find that so rewarding. I do love the feeling of working. Finishing a shift and being like guuuuurl I got this. Knowing you’ve just made a nice little sum of money for yourself and thinking about what you’re gonna blow it on. I like routine, I know it’s strange to say but I do. If I don’t have a routine or something to do, I will genuinely sit and watch Netflix all day and then feel shit about it when I realise I’ve wasted the day. I like doing things and being productive, but don’t get me wrong I also love my bed and being lazy. So I’m kind of dreading actual working hours. I still want weekends and time to myself. But I’m gonna be working alongside Nick Grimshaw anyway so every day will feel like the weekend.

*10/10 recommend. 

I wrote this when I was procrastinating. As per. Hopefully the next time we have a little chat I’ll be freeeeeee from education! (how mad is that?!)
Lotsa’ love,

Chlo X

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