when life gives you lemons, make lemonade

I've literally just taken my fake nail off to type this properly (those things look good but they're not bloody practical) - so yeah, you know this is the real deal. I didn't want to do yet another post on my heartbreak because it's just getting boring now, although a lot of you message me really sweet things about my blog posts and it warms my heart to know that something I have written could resonate with someone in such a way. However, I do find it very therapeutic in a weird way. I get so caught up in my emotions and feelings that I just need to write. It never feels enough to just write it and not do anything with it - I have challenged myself to feel more comfortable feeling vulnerable, and in a sense sharing my personal thoughts and feelings tackles this. I wanted this to be the last post on heartbreak - going into the new year and all, but fuck that "new year, new me" bullshit. I'm still gonna be heartbroken in 2018, amirite? I have tried to ig...

It's been a bit of a shit show of a year to put it bluntly. I started this year with the love of my life, our pets Kimmy and Storm and a lovely little house we rented in the best area surrounded by all the cats. I remember being at University and wishing my life away there, impatiently waiting for the moment I could move in with Lewis and start our lives together properly - not having to deal with long distance and train journeys. Then all of a sudden, just like that, I was living through the days I had always dreamt about. I started this year in the best way possible and with the intention to get a mortgage on the apartment of my dreams, things couldn't have been better. It's crazy how quickly things can change and it always scares me how you can never imagine it happening. If you told me this time last year that I would not be with Lewis a year from now, I would laugh in your face. We were in love and it was real. I remember we always used to say to one another "...