2018
So far, 2018 is shaping up to be everything I wanted and needed it to be. I think I will always look back on 2017 and everything that came with it and feel grateful that it happened. I can't believe I've got to a point in my life where I can say that, because I still know how raw my pain was, how very real it was and how much it affected my life. But I thank it. I thank it all. Without that pain, that heartbreak, there was no defining moment where I had to change. I didn't feel like there was anything that needed to change, but looking back I should have done things differently. I neglected my friends and rarely went out because I was so in love, and I don't regret that. That was what I wanted. He was what I wanted. I was ready to settle down, think about having kids, getting married. Which is so mental to think about now because I could not be further away from that. I used to beat myself up about that, panicking because I had to start again and I felt like I had bee...